Hurt

I’ve been continuously working on recording songs; cover songs, in hopes that I will get my brain in the right space to start writing my own songs again. It’s not working yet. I mean, I’ve written some music. Nearly 2 complete songs, including the one in my last post. But they’re just sitting there, waiting for lyrics. Still, I’m not giving up yet. Today I saw a psychiatrist and got some meds changed. That might be just what I need. Since my last post, I’ve recorded two more cover songs. One of them is a cover of Tally Hall’s “Never Meant to Know”. The other is a cover of Johnny Cash’s version of Nine Inch Nails’ “Hurt”. You can play

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Testing, testing… testosterone

I posted a fairly vague update the other day on Facebook/Twitter about some bad tests. It’s not like me to be vague; I prefer to be an open book with nothing to hide. But some things I hold back on because I don’t want OTHER people to feel like they know too much. (TMI = gross, get away from me) So I guess consider this a TMI warning for what lies ahead. But I’m sharing it because I’m excited and scared. And I don’t really want to go through it alone. I have long suspected (approx. 6 or 7 years) there was something going on inside me that wasn’t right. Primarily it was the rapid weight gain that I was powerless

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Near Death Experience: The Epilogue

What I’m sitting down here to write is intended to be an epilogue to a post I made about four years ago called “Near Death Experience“.  It’s been four years and I never quite wrote that “Part 2” to the story, so I figured an epilogue was more appropriate.  So if you haven’t read about “the event” before, maybe you should start there.  I just had to re-read it for the first time and it was still difficult making it all the way through.  I had to pause a couple times, even. So let’s see… where to begin… Not long after I had that experience and posted the blog entry, on June 24th, 2010, I lost my job — and soon after, my

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