Welcome To My Life

  • Hospice Cat, er, Care

    Hospice Cat, er, Care

    So, it’s come to this. My latest hospitalization was May 21st to June 16th during which I had a lot of meetings and doctors and tests and treatments. I left with my defibrillator function turned off (as it once was for many years) and also left on hospice care at home. What does that mean? Well, for one it means the end of hospital visits. All treatments will be done at home unless an extreme emergency comes up. It means I have new nurses coming and aiding me in new ways and basically just keeping me as comfortable as possible. It means the end of my life. Some people have seen me say I’m dying for quite some time now  Read More »
  • He Had A Lot To Say. He Had A Lot of Nothing To Say.

    He Had A Lot To Say. He Had A Lot of Nothing To Say.

    In this blog post, I make an attempt to address everyone in my life for probably the last time ever. For real, this time.  Read More »
  • The End of The Road

    The End of The Road

    A very important update on the state of my health. It's kind of imperative you read it, please. The prognosis is, unfortunately, not good.  Read More »
  • Version 12 is Here

    Version 12 is Here

    Due to the old theme I was using deciding to remove one of the sidebars, I have decided to not use it anymore and switch to another theme. I’m still working on it, though, so what you see here may not be finalized for another few weeks. Perhaps longer, because, obviously I don’t pay much attention to this website anymore. (Yet I can’t ever let it die…) Farewell version 11 (11.5).  Read More »
  • Health Vlog 3/7/21

    Health Vlog 3/7/21

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  • WTF GFM – A Love Letter

    WTF GFM – A Love Letter

    This is the latest update on my GoFundMe campaign. I'm cross-posting here to keep everyone informed.  Read More »
  • Happy Birthday, Live at Home

    Happy Birthday, Live at Home

    Happy Birthday, Live at Home! Here's some new(ish) music!  Read More »
  • I Made Another Album!

    I Made Another Album!

    I mean, I sort of made a new album. Not really. I just re-released my old album, To whom it may concern...  Read More »
  • I Made an Album

    I Made an Album

    I wasn't expecting to. It just kind of... happened.  Read More »
  • Hurt

    Hurt

    I’ve been continuously working on recording songs; cover songs, in hopes that I will get my brain in the right space to start writing my own songs again. It’s not working yet. I mean, I’ve written some music. Nearly 2 complete songs, including the one in my last post. But they’re just sitting there, waiting for lyrics. Still, I’m not giving up yet. Today I saw a psychiatrist and got some meds changed. That might be just what I need. Since my last post, I’ve recorded two more cover songs. One of them is a cover of Tally Hall’s “Never Meant to Know”. The other is a cover of Johnny Cash’s version of Nine Inch Nails’ “Hurt”. You can play  Read More »

Latest Videos

Coz Baldwin

I'm Coz. I use this channel to upload my original songs, cover songs, and karaoke performances, mainly. You'll also find old home videos and "funny" videos that I created and think are amusing enough to get some eyes on them.

Coz Baldwin
Coz Baldwin Live Stream
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Please take a minute and watch/listen to me speak and see how life is like for me now... and how my voice now sounds. Gofundme: https://www.gofundme.com/f/2cu9f-help-coz-get-a-new-heart
Health Vlog, 03/07/2021
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Originally recorded by Dolly Parton in 1973, this was covered in the early 2000's by The White Stripes. I consider this more a cover of The White Stripes version, personally. Download a high quality version of it here: https://cozbaldwin.bandcamp.com/track/jolene HELP ME GET A NEW HEART: https://bit.ly/helpcoz2 --- CREDITS: Words & Music - Dolly Parton Instrumentation - Coz Baldwin Producer/mixer/mastering - Coz Baldwin Recorded using Korg X50 keyboard, Shure Beta 58A microphone, Focusrite Scarlett Solo (2nd Gen) audio interface, and Garageband.
Coz Baldwin - Jolene (Dolly Parton cover)
YouTube Video VVVOdEdTZ0JYeUhJSUF5RThMTGNjbFdRLndfVjhkdTVnX29r
To download, please visit: https://cozbaldwin.bandcamp.com/track/the-ghosts-the-haunt-me Help me get a new heart: https://www.gofundme.com/xzxx9-help-coz-get-a-new-heart --- Here's an original song that I initially wrote in 2002. It wasn't until 2010 when I recorded it at home and put out into the public. Recently, while revisiting another older song of mine (The Shroud), I decided to give this one another chance by remastering it, giving it some artwork, and putting it back out there. So here we are! I hope you enjoy. When I think about how this song came about, I'm reminded of when I was driving down a road and the image of an old girlfriend popped into my head. "It's like she's a ghost haunting me," I thought. These are the ghosts that haunt me; the memories of past loves. They come without warning, hitting me like a freight train. So this song is mainly about her, how we met, etc. and how no matter how long it's been, the memories of her still haunt me. The lyrics are unusually cryptic at times. Some lines I can't even remember their original meanings myself! And the timeline of events is a bit screwy (which, again, is unusual for me). But in the end, it's not really her that's sad, but rather the situation; the future we'll never know. Words and Music - Coz Baldwin Producer/mixer/mastering - Coz Baldwin Recorded using Korg X50 keyboard, Shure Beta 58A microphone, Focusrite Scarlett Solo (2nd Gen) audio interface, and Garageband. Cover art photography - PixaBay (www.pexels.com/@pixabay)
Coz Baldwin - The Ghosts That Haunt Me
YouTube Video VVVOdEdTZ0JYeUhJSUF5RThMTGNjbFdRLnZMRmlwOW5vcVpn
To download, please visit: cozbaldwin.bandcamp.com/track/the-shroud Help me get a new heart: https://www.gofundme.com/xzxx9-help-coz-get-a-new-heart --- Originally written in May 2004, The Shroud has been a song that never got a proper, final recording. I tried back in 2008 and in fact the vocals and piano are from that recording session. That session ended abruptly and I didn't go back to it until now, in April 2019. I thought about redoing the parts but I've grown to accept them as they are. So I kept them and built around that primary framework. After just a couple days of working on it, I felt ready to put it out there. Words and Music - Coz Baldwin Producer/mixer/mastering - Coz Baldwin Recorded using Korg X50 keyboard, Shure Beta 58A microphone, Focusrite Scarlett Solo (2nd Gen) audio interface, and Garageband. Cover art photography - Marlene Leppänen (www.pexels.com/@marleneleppanen)
Coz Baldwin - The Shroud
YouTube Video VVVOdEdTZ0JYeUhJSUF5RThMTGNjbFdRLkU5YlZJYm84TjZr
This is a song I've written with the working title "Raging Waters". I've been trying to finish it (write lyrics to) for months. I've decided to just let it be an instrumental for now and release it as-is. Help me get a new heart: https://www.gofundme.com/xzxx9-help-coz-get-a-new-heart
Coz Baldwin - Raging Waters [Instrumental Demo]
YouTube Video VVVOdEdTZ0JYeUhJSUF5RThMTGNjbFdRLkJUSGN6VkFYRkFz
This is a song I've written with the working title "3:10 to Yuma". I've been trying to finish it (write lyrics to) for months. I've decided to just let it be an instrumental for now and release it as-is. Help me get a new heart: https://www.gofundme.com/xzxx9-help-coz-get-a-new-heart
Coz Baldwin - 3:10 to Yuma [Instrumental Demo]
YouTube Video VVVOdEdTZ0JYeUhJSUF5RThMTGNjbFdRLkxIWnNvcXZWTm5v
You can download a high quality version of this song here: https://cozbaldwin.bandcamp.com/track/hurt Help me get a new heart: https://www.gofundme.com/xzxx9-help-coz-get-a-new-heart --- Although I'd always been familiar with NIN's version of the song, it wasn't until Johnny Cash released his cover that it finally struck a chord within me. I first heard Johnny Cash's 'Hurt' while at my friend Sara's house. She was very much a broken person, herself. This song touched us both very much -- so when I decided to do a cover of it, she was looking over my shoulder the entire time. I decided to use an image of her for the cover and make a double entendre out of the cracks. One, to reflect the cracks in her (and myself, for that matter) but also, the cracks portray a particular anxiety for me right now; being afraid my ceiling is cracking and will fall down on me. This fear has been crippling for weeks, even while working on this song. So hopefully I captured some of its energy into the song and out of my head. Sara was one of the best singers I ever knew. She died back in 2004. I never did anything to commemorate her, so I thought she'd appreciate this. She'd probably have wanted to remain anonymous, so I covered her eyes. And there you have it. CREDITS: Words and Music - Trent Reznor/Nine Inch Nails Instrumentation - Coz Baldwin (Based on Johnny Cash's version) Producer/mixer/mastering - Coz Baldwin Recorded using Korg X50 keyboard, Shure Beta 58A microphone, Focusrite Scarlett Solo (2nd Gen) audio interface, and Garageband.
Coz Baldwin - Hurt (NIN / Johnny Cash cover)
YouTube Video VVVOdEdTZ0JYeUhJSUF5RThMTGNjbFdRLnRqM2pSU1lBQWM0
This is my cover of Tally Hall's song "Never Meant To Know" from the album "Good & Evil". Enjoy! You can download a high quality version of it here: https://cozbaldwin.bandcamp.com/track/never-meant-to-know Help me get a new heart: https://bit.ly/helpcoz2 --- Words and Music - Rob Cantor/Tally Hall Instrumentation - Coz Baldwin Producer/mixer/mastering - Coz Baldwin Recorded using Korg X50 keyboard, Shure Beta 58A microphone, Focusrite Scarlett Solo (2nd Gen) audio interface, and Garageband. ----- LYRICS: Woke up today with a lay of the land Feather in cap & the sun in the sand It was easy It was easy to understand Everything suddenly falls out of sight Every attachment is made of the light That you offered You have offered to give me life CHORUS See the sky & all the land together again See the way the earth can stay below Who do we think we are? Everything plays a part There are some things we are never meant to know Having enjoyed all the meat from the bone Is perfectly equal to being alone It was even But you breathe & I turn to stone Everything suddenly looks like a sign Easy to see from the outermost clime I believe in what I leave in the way behind CHORUS & all the parts combine to one & all of us around the sun Everything will fall away To order from the disarray See the sun the shadows cast From all the times I floated past See the ocean spinning out With all the hope & all the doubt See the sky & all the land together again See the way the earth can stay below Who do we think we are? Everything plays a part There are some things we don't understand Reasons on the other hand There are some things we are never meant to know
Coz Baldwin - Never Meant To Know (Tally Hall cover)
YouTube Video VVVOdEdTZ0JYeUhJSUF5RThMTGNjbFdRLlJmQkEyMWNRUWkw
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