Hurt

I’ve been continuously working on recording songs; cover songs, in hopes that I will get my brain in the right space to start writing my own songs again. It’s not working yet. I mean, I’ve written some music. Nearly 2 complete songs, including the one in my last post. But they’re just sitting there, waiting for lyrics. Still, I’m not giving up yet. Today I saw a psychiatrist and got some meds changed. That might be just what I need. Since my last post, I’ve recorded two more cover songs. One of them is a cover of Tally Hall’s “Never Meant to Know”. The other is a cover of Johnny Cash’s version of Nine Inch Nails’ “Hurt”. You can play

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Pigeons Carry Diseases and Muss Up the Place

You know those rare moments when something triggers a laughing fit that just goes on forever? An hour, at least. I miss them. This scene; watched when I was about 15 or 16, completely blew me away. A clip, out of context, will certainly not have the same effect on anyone else, but I was a young teenager, trying to soak in all the David Lynch I could via Blockbuster Video. My friend Tom and I were renting Lynch’s movies one after another, submerging ourselves in the bizarre, dark and often frightening surrealism of Lynch’s work. For days. So when we got to this scene in WILD AT HEART, we both quickly collapsed in hysterics. Rewinded the tape about 30

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Looking Back on Point of View

An old friend, Julie, suddenly came back into my life yesterday and reminded me of this song that I wrote when I was about 16. “I See Myself”. She didn’t have to remind me, actually, as there’d been tiny bits and pieces of it that have haunted me for years. But Julie loved this song and would often play it herself. She remembered much more of it than I did. In fact, she still had some handwritten lyrics of the song. When I got to read all the lyrics again, I remembered it was actually called “Point of View”. So I went looking through some old tapes I digitized years ago. Most of them were living-room recordings of my first

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How Mel Gibson Shaped My Philosophy

Here’s something I’ve been thinking about a lot, lately. For the last year, at least, I’ve been trying to focus in on a particular idea; one that has been a driving force in my life for a very long time. A philosophy, if you will. And while I always had a sense of where it came from, it didn’t fully come into focus until fairly recently. It came from a goddamned Mel Gibson movie

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