My Damaged Heart: Surgery Blog – Part 1

This is very difficult for me, because I have no idea what I’m going to write.  I usually have a few points; a few ideas or moments I want to convey before I sit down for something like this.  But I’ve not a single moment that stands out among the rest.  This is kind of the reason I am doing this; to connect back to it, to embrace it, to understand what made a difference and where I detached.  My therapist tells me this is important.  I agree.  I wasn’t going to do this.  I never seem to write about the big, huge events in my life.  Not because I intentionally try to avoid them, but because by the time

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Surgery postponed?

Last week it was sprung on me that I needed dental clearance before surgery. WTF?! My mouth is in bad shape right now. So… last night I went to the dentist’s. He denied signing off on me. I’m too much of a risk. But I should have the Cleveland docs call him to discuss it and they can get a better idea of what they’ll be dealing with. Fuuuuhhhhhhk. So this morning I called the surgeon’s office. They didn’t cancel anything and they didn’t see a need to speak with the dentist. Instead, I have a dental appointment first thing in the morning once I arrive in Cleveland… before the pulmonary appointment. I will be seen by a dentist who

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Back from Cleveland

Well, I am fairly certain I sent a billion tweets out for no one but myself. I guess that’s OK. The end result of the trip is that the doctor recommends I have the surgery. He’s not even comfortable with waiting until the Spring, when I wanted. He recommends January. Now I have to figure out how I’m gonna do this because I apparently can’t do this on my own. So… most likely my mom’s gonna have to come out with me and then when I come home, I’ll be staying with her for a little. However, we’re not sure how she’s gonna pay for all that. So it’s kind of up in the air but I have to make

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Hello Cleveland!

This hotel is way above what I've ever experienced. Valet parking. I never had that. I was visibly confused by how to handle everything. Multiple tiny rooms in my suite. Was gonna try and attach a video here of it but I can't. Maybe I can get it on YouTube later. So it took me, what, 8 hours or so? Not too bad. I wonder if anyone kept up with my Twitter updates along the way. Click Twitter on the sidebar to go to my tweets page and read through them if you'd like. Last time I stayed in Cleveland was back in '97 I think when I took a Greyhound out here to visit Melanie. Wish I knew how

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