Old Words, Part 1

Going through some hidden archives of my writing. Came across a few things that, I have to admit, I’m quite impressed by. Most of it I don’t even remember writing. I’m glad I did, though. Perhaps I’ll share more publicly here as time goes on. I wrote a number of pieces through the telling of a fictional story, or a fictional story based on real-life events; a mixing of reality, metaphor, and fantasy. This is one of them. 12/22/05 “I wasn’t really in that bad of a mood,” I recalled to myself later in the evening. I remember walking into the hall of tears and cheers and looking at all the paintings on the wall. They were animated, but lifeless

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Deferred Gratification

I like to re-post this every once in awhile. It was written by an old blogger friend named Sarah (a.k.a. Timtom). “Maybe these aren’t the shit times, maybe it’ll always be like this. Probably not for you. You usually get what you want. I remember though, my A level teacher was always talking about Deferred Gratification. How us 6th formers were doing the right thing, and we’d get our rewards later, and they’d be better for it. Then, they said the same thing at university. I feel like I should be sending off for my gratification now. Maybe it’ll be like when I applied for a provisional driving license last month. They wrote back saying ‘But you’re already allowed to

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Sorry, All

Sorry, Dan. I was supposed to see Religulous today with him, but it completely slipped my mind and he drove all the way to the theater to find I wasn’t there. I could have sworn I put it in my calendar but it wasn’t there to remind me. I feel awful. I spent the last couple hours going through some really old blogs. Man, I was fucking nuts between 19 and 22. For real. I feel bad for acting the way I did to a handful of people. I’m just not like that anymore. Here’s a picture of me from around the year 2000 (Age: 20). Pretty hot, right?

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Flashbacks

Weird…. I just had a flashback of walking down Lansdowne Avenue with an ex from long ago.  It was  around Christmas time, perhaps Christmas Eve; and it was so quiet, so still, with a brisk chill in the air.  We were lit by Christmas lights adorning the houses and the streetlamps above.  It was so peaceful in that moment.  I’ve not known a moment like that since. I really do dwell on the past a lot.

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People. People who need people.

It’s been 10 days since Circuit Theory “broke up” and played their last show. It’s been 4 days since I witnessed a woman crossing the street get struck by a speeding car, who never stopped. Kinda having a hard time getting that out of my head. Thursday will mark one month since my grandmother’s death. I’ve been thinking lately about people in my past. I’ve been thinking about how we can have people play such integral roles in our lives; to be friends and/or lovers with someone for whatever amount of time and then just separate like a split cell to go in totally different directions, never looking back. It’s kind of amazing that we work like that, y’know? We

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