On a serious/whiny note… I am quite disappointed that not one single person

On a serious/whiny note…

I am quite disappointed that not one single person that I know wrote me about the site. The way I look at it, I don’t ask much of anyone. I barely ever do anything good with my time/life. I barely ever have a passion for anything, let alone be PROUD of something I’ve done. But I made it clear that the new design was very exhausting and I worked hard on it. I made it clear I was excited about it. I made it clear that it was really something important. Yet no one, not even those few lurking daily visitors, wrote a damned word to me about it.

And unless you feel the need to really express how you feel about the site, now…. don’t say anything. I haven’t earned it from you, I annoyed it from you… and I don’t want that.

It reminds me of last Christmas/birthday when no one gave me a copy of American Beauty. Not even Magnolia, or Fight Club, or Being John Malkovich. Nothing. And those, especially American Beauty were HIGHLY known as obsessions and loves of mine. What did I get, anyway? Hm, let’s see… Mommy got me a little piano-magnet that plays Fur Elise when you press the keys. Oh! I also got a bottle of Designer Imposters cologne! And a bunch of other CRAP I didn’t ask for, let alone WANT!

Ok, ok… I’m getting a bit hysterical here.

I try to look at the optimistic side — maybe everyone just assumed someone else would get it for me.

Maybe everyone else assumed their comments on the site meant nothing since everyone else would be writing in with their opinions. yeah, that’s it………….

Well you’re wrong.

I still have yet to own a copy of American Beauty.

I still have yet to receive any emails/gbook entries on the site.

I still have yet to doubt the impression that I get that no one gives a shit about me and what few things are important to me.

…and you wonder why.

Coz

Create until nothing is left to create.

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