October 2000 Archive

10.31.2000

9:04:46 AM

Whee. I’m getting a loaner car! I wonder what I’m gonna get. (Probably an ’89 Ford Escort, right?)

In other news… due faccia has now shown themselves.

::Coz::

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12:17:08 AM

OK.. doesn’t look like I’m gonna make the list.

Goodnight.

::Coz::

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12:05:35 AM

Happy Halloween, you freaks.

::Coz::

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12:02:21 AM

And here’s your Daily MIDI!

Were you expecting anything but this?

::Coz::

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10.30.2000

11:56:06 PM

So, umm… what do you think of this?

::Coz::

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11:51:13 PM

Dammit… I’m not gonna make the Power Bloggers list before 12:00 🙁 Well, maybe I am… it’s updated in PST…. hmm….. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH!

::Coz::

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11:37:41 PM

Look, I told you there’s nothing wrong with your palindrome! Leave me be!

::Coz::

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11:21:53 PM

I wonder how my car is holding up out there. I just know I’m gonna wake up and have an egged-up car with a bad transmission…. ugh.

::Coz::

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11:20:39 PM

So I’ve been bored enough to go searching through Classmates.com for celebrities I like. ha ha. I found one that I think might be Fiona Apple, though who can be sure. There’s no bio or anything, but it is her real name and it’s in the area of which she went to school. The damned “contact me” seciton isn’t working on the site, so I can’t email or anything. Another one I found was a possible Maynard James Keenan, lead singer of TOOL andA Perfect Circle. That is a little harder to swallow, but It’s still possible.

I’m on there… do you think you can find me??? Now, I just ran out of people to search for. There’s like, no one I care to look up. Sad, really…

::Coz::

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9:59:04 PM

HOOOOO YEEAAAH!!!!!

I JUST MADE 1,000 HITS! GO ME, GO ME, GO ME!

shut up, me….

::Coz::

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9:54:35 PM

Looks like I do have a lot to say once I start typing.

I’m listening to The Gray’s. I’m sure you haven’t heard of them. I’d go into detail but I don’t feel like it. All I gotta say is that the band is exstinct, but the one album they put out was amazing. Jon Brion rules. At least he’s still around doing his thang.

::Coz::

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9:53:09 PM

The plan for tomorrow: I work at 12, but I have to wake up early so I can get to Saturn and drop off my fucked up car, and hopefully be able to pick up a loaner. Dammit. I wanna sleep! GRR!!

I don’t fucking understand it. I’ve talked to so many people with Saturns who’ve owned them for years and they all say “I’ve had this for __ years and I’ve never had one problem, it’s great.” FUCK THAT! It’s just my luck I get a brand new car and within a month I am dealing with this shit.

Isn’t anything in this world worth anything? Is anything worry-free? Is anything manufactured qith care and assurance, and not all half-assed?! God dammit, I’m getting so pissed thinking about this.

John is wanting to drag me out somewhere… or at least out of my house. Denny’s is all I like to go to. Especially halloween. I figure that Denny’s + halloween = girls dressed up and letting go of their inhabitions whilst they are masked by facepaint and dracula teeth. Heh?! Right! Not that I care — I have my eyes on San Fransisco, where my heart has been taken to.

::Coz::

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9:39:20 PM

I think either RedRival is finally working on their transferring of systems, or I’m not the only one who knows that RedRival’s FTP is still on the 5 user limit… I think I’d go with the latter.

You see… I’m having a little more trouble publishing than usual.

::Coz::

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9:37:04 PM

Ok done.

I don’t have much to say, really. But I should continue blogging for no reason except to try to get on the “Power Blogger’s” list. No, that would be stupid and childish…

::Coz::

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9:29:49 PM

Oops! Forgot to change the Site Of The Week. I don’t know why I bother, really. Do any of you even check it out anymore???

::Coz::

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12:21:24 AM

Are you ready? It’s coming! All Hallow’s Eve! mwa-ha-ha-ha-haaaaa!!!

Ah, shit! That means tonight is mischief night. Better go dig up the ol’ pistol….

::Coz::

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10.29.2000

11:35:34 PM

*looks*

I see nothing wrong with your palindrome. Are you sure it was a hissing sound and not a bumpy sound?

::Coz::

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10:55:28 PM

Bo’a! Lemme teh’l yoo a li’l bit ’bouts wemmen. Dey ain’t nuttin but a bunch o’ freaks!

Why do you say that, Grandpa?

Hmm? Why do I say whut, bo’a?

Why do you say that women are a bunch of freaks?

I ain’t neva sed nuttin’ like dat, son! Go back to yer tee-vee watchin’.

MTV’s “Jackass” has got kids from San Fransisco to the Jersey Shore filming their own fuck-ups, and antics. On my way home tonight I noticed a kid riding a bike in an empty bank parking lot and another one sitting on the curb, camcorder in hand — hoping to be the next person known only as a COMPLETE MORON who’s representing Springfield, PA.

Hey bo’a?

Yes, Grandpa? 

Lemme teh’l yoo a li’l bit ’bouts wemmen…….

::Coz::

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1:57:56 AM

What the….!?!?! Growing Pains — The Movie!?!?!

::Coz::

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1:44:37 AM

Microsoft. Hm. Micro-Soft. Micro………soft. Micro software? Microwaveable Software? Little tiny pieces of software…..

Ever question the most common of words of the English language?

BTW — My transmission… on my brand new car that’s still under 1,000 miles, and no more than a month old???? It’s messed up. Still drivable. (I think…)

:::More to come:::

::Coz::

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12:54:02 AM

hmmm.. 77,438 files on my hard drive. Is that bad? I have one virus, too. In my autoexec.bat — is THAT bad???

::Coz::

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12:49:11 AM

Oh, Cawsin Lally! I’m so happy! Let’s do da dance uf d’joy!

::Coz::

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12:21:38 AM

Our lives our changing so rapidly. I’m sure you’re all aware of this by now. Have you ever thought about it, though? Have you ever thought back to what you were doing just 5 years ago?

So let me ask you, fair reader…

You are here. Now. Where will you be in 5 years? What do you expect it to be? What do you hope it to be? And lastly… What will be in your life 5 years from now… at least? In other words: What things must be different (in your opinion) in 5 years. Just 5 years. Can you see it? Can you feel it? It’s your life… find the handle and grab hold.

::Coz::

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10.28.2000

1:40:22 AM

To tell you the truth, I really don’t have much more to say after my last blog. So pay attention to it, and soak it all up. Here’s a new MIDI to help you do so.

::Coz::

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10.27.2000

5:23:34 PM

This is me. This is me straightening out my life. This is me standing up for myself. This is me scraping the bullshit off my plate. If it pains you in some way, then you shouldn’t have fed me the shit in the first place. This is not directed to one person individually. This is directed to you all.

Do I need to explain myself any more? Question my actions, if you will… but wouldn’t you like to have your life rehabilitated, too? Well then. Do something about it. …. I am.

::Coz::

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3:20:59 AM

HEY!

::Coz::

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2:36:15 AM

LISTEN TO ME, DAMMIT!

PAY ATTENTION TO ME!!!!!

::Coz::

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1:42:19 AM

I don’t know what hit me today, but I’m pretty damned depressed. I realized today that I had 6 months to get things straightened out in my life, or even simple things like clean my room. Did I do a damned thing? NO! I spent 6 months of free time collecting dust. Waiting for the end of the world. It didn’t come, and now I’m stuck with a dirty environment, a car I can’t afford, a job that is the reason I can’t afford it, bills piled up and getting yellow with age, The Selective Service coming after me threatening me with imprisonment, when all I have to do is say “I’m sorry, I’m not eligible.”. I owe my father, I owe GMAC, I owe Visa, I owe Discover, I owe the hospital…. and all I have to do is send my car insurance the hospital bills and they’ll take care of it. HAVE I??? NO!!!!!What the fuck is wrong with me?! God dammit! I feel too behind to catch up with things and contemplating how much it’s really worth it. I wish someone would kill me. For that split second before I died, I’d be happy knowing I don’t have to worry about anything. I know it’s my own damned fault, and I’m taking the beating… but I just want to get out of here — this house — this lifestyle.

So, when this all hit me I began to clean my rooms. (bedroom and computer room) I can see the floors. I have 3 big trash bags full of dirty clothes that need washing. I had 4 bags of trash. I used up half a can of Lysol and another half of Fabreez. I put all the paperwork I have to take care of in a pile. Didn’t do anything with it, still. I can’t get focused on it. I think about it, and just want to break down. It’s like how homework was for me in HS. I just can’t do it. Only problem is… with this shit, I have GOT to do it, or I’ll be in deeper shit than I am already. I feel panicked just thinking about it, now. Will things come together as they always magically seem to do for me? Probably. Sooner or later… But wait! What the fuck does it matter?! I still have to do a lot myself. I still have to get my life together. It’s about time to start that. But how? When will I be able to pick up the pieces without panicking? Will the day come soon? Will the world end before I get around to it? Will my life end before it? It’s all or nothing with me. Sure I have semi-clean rooms now, but I wont get that motivation again for awhile. I have to start and not stop until everything is done. And therein lies the problem. It’s impossible to get it all done at once…. with no help. I need help. I need a shoulder to cry on. I need someone to lean on. I need someone to lend me their hand and help me up out of the mud. let me know I’m not alone. I know I have it, but it’s 3,000 miles away, and I need it here. I need help. Plain and fucking simple: I ….. NEED …… HELP. There I said it. Now flutter off to where you came before you met me. It’s safer that way — for all of us.

::Coz::

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10.26.2000

4:20:54 AM

“First Name?”

Bob 

“Last?”

…..Weadababeetsabouy

“Collect call from Bob Weadababeetsabouy?”

Sorry, wrong number!

…who was it dear?

“Bob. They had the baby. It’s a boy.”

I love that commercial! Very clever.

::Coz::

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4:13:16 AM

Hey there funkalicious peeps! I’m in a damn good mood. Wanna know why? Cuz I get a day off tomorrow!

So today at work I sold a camera, and a pair of binoculars. Now, on the camera, I also sold a 5 year warrently plan with it, which is the maximum — which is the top thing you can do as a Ritz associate — which means that next week’s weekly newsletter will contain my name under the page that says everyone that got a 5-year. Yeah, baby — YEAH!

Hey, speaking of which… After work I went to John’s. Forced him to go to Denny’s where we were for a little while. Ran into Megan Martin, there. Told her I could stay out late and I needed something to do after dropping John off. So… I dropped him off and went over to her place. We watched TV, a few of her friends came over and gossiped, giggled, drank some beers, (I did, too, which is not like me… but I was in the mood for whatever reason) and then they left. We turned on Austin Powers 2. She started falling asleep so I told her I’d let her go to bed. I left. Came home. Here I am.

Thanks to her motivation, I think I should be a bit more relaxed with my sexuality. What an admirable woman. Vikki rox. I want to have sex with her. —- lol, okay maybe I shouldn’t be quite so open *wink* j/k —- And I still loveNiniane.

::Coz::

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10.25.2000

1:34:12 AM

I haven’t blogged today. Hmm. Well, I don’t have anything to say. I’ll just put up some unrelated MIDI. Ta-Da! byebye

::Coz::

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10.24.2000

2:46:14 AM

Well, time for me to hit the hay.

I hope you all have a great day.

There’s just one thing I’d like to say

before I go to where I lay.

“The most energetic way

for you to be gay

is to eat canadian bacon. It’s good for you, eh!”

::Coz::

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1:09:28 AM

This is from an email I wrote to my egroups discussion mailing list. You can join it by going to the bottom of the “Contact” section. Thank you.

“I would like more of a discussion to be held on here… I don’t know what, though.

How about politics? Who here is voting, and if so… who are you voting for? If you’re not voting, who WOULD you vote for?

Myself? I am not registered, nor do I want to be. Until a candidate comes along that I actually like… I refuse to register. I look at it like this: They keep saying to register and vote because without it, you’re voice is not heard. My father votes whatever the 3rd party is in order to convey his voice to say that he wants someone other than a republican or democrat. Well… I choose not to register because that’s my way of voicing out that no one running is anyone I want to win. THIS may have an impact in the way of telling the country “there are so few young people registered…” which they already know. But if they continue to not register (like myself) the people may begin to question “why” — Perhaps then will they realize that the candidates are all puppets, and real people will start entering the race. The real people will enter. The young people will register and vote. Everyone’s happy.

(Except the puppets, who, by that time are put back on their shelves left to dry. The hole in their ass of which they were being puppeted by is dripping shit, and their faces are sustaining an opened mouth from which was left open by all the dicks they sucked to get where they were)

Hmm. This is a nice thought for the day. I’m glad we had this conversation.”

 

The bottom of the “Contact” section. Join it, won’t you?

::Coz::

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12:37:37 AM

But… I guess I should blog this person. I was very intrigued by her writings.

::Coz::

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12:29:49 AM

No. I have nothing to say about today.

::Coz::

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10.23.2000

1:06:10 AM

I must be insane. I applied online for a job as an assistant webmaster at Google.com of which I have no experience for except what you’re looking at. Man, I would love to work there. It’s in SF, which is good because then I can be with Niniane. Cross your fingers, but don’t hold your breath. 🙂

Also, there’s a new Site Of The Week up in “Links” finally.

::Coz::

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10.22.2000

11:20:43 PM

Well, I just got back from the practice/try-out. It went fine. No one seemed really enthusiastic, and I’m not sure why —– I sung along with a cover they do of a Clutch song. Then kinda added old lyrics to one of their songs, and then they played other stuff that I didn’t know of theirs and I just sang along with old writings of mine.

I didnt get any one laughing at me or criticising at all. But I also didnt get any wide grins and clapping from the three band members. just kinda like a nodding of heads like. “..hm.. cool…”

For some reason I was never thinking of it as a “try-out” or an “interview” even though it was, and I sorta knew that. but they said they’d let me know. So I told them i’d be willing to come again. So.. I guess we’ll see.

But if I do “make the band” (ugh, I hate that term. Especially when dealing with myself. I always wanted a band of my own, not join one.) — I’m going to have to change their name.

What is it, you ask?

skuz

yeah…..so I told the bassist, and I tried saying it nicely that it just doesnt present a good image

and not at all close to the sound of the band. I said if I heard that “skuz” was playing, I’d think of some hardcore acid rock band and I’d immediatly turn my back.

And they’re just not like that — theyre kinda like….. I dont know — the band “Live”‘s heavier stuff; Kinda simple chord progressions, catchy, and energetic, too.

I worked 5 hours today. It was another insane day. Everyone around there are snobby whores who’re never happy and must make a fuss about everything. For instance: One woman called 10 minutes after 5 (closing time). She asked Kate if her film was ready and if she can pick it up. Kate explained we were closed, and listened to the ladies story of how she was told to pick it up at 5 — even though Kate had our copy of the reciept in her hand and it said 4:00. Kate explained it was due at 4, and the lady started yelling at her saying she was told it was 5 and she wanted to speak to a manager. There was no manager and no one wanted to “fill-in” so Kate said her only option was to come in and pick it up first thing in the morning. This….. was not what the lady wanted to hear. Well, what the f*ck?!

So, there’s one good example. I’ll spare you any others.

All for now, I guess.

::Coz::

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2:52:25 AM

I am….

without blood.

without flesh.

without hair.

without odor.

without hands.

without air.

…without life.

You can not see me.

You can not know me.

I am not here.

I am non-exsistant.

::Coz::

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2:11:29 AM

Today:

I woke up at 6:40, left at 7:15. Picked up Kathy (a local Ritz associate that I hadn’t met previous to today) and waited for Matt (a co-worker of mine) to arrive. He never did, so we left for the vendor (vender?) training. Kathy and I hit it off quite well from the get-go, I must say. Little flirting going on, I have to admit, but she’s got a boyfriend and I’ve got my Niniane, and we both silently acknowledged that. No big deal, but it was nice to be somewhat “friendly” with a girl… it’s been awhile.

We arrived there at 9am. Once there, we kinda split up. I knew no one except for my store manager and another associate whom I work with, but rarely talked to. So, I spent the day in a group of about 10 people (all semi-new to the company) as we went from one room to another with different rep’s in each room, learning their products in 15 min or 30 minute intervals. I happened to be one of the “lucky ones” being in a group with 2 of the cutest girls in the whole place. One of them looked like Niniane from the side, but from the front she was only about 70% what Niniane is. Missing, Niniane so much these days, I just had to talk to this girl. She was nice, I suppose but we definitely didn’t click. (Not that I was hoping for a “click”!!) But it was a bit weird. The other “cute” one was quite anti-social and I didn’t even bother with her, as I don’t with most people. We finally ended our training at 5pm. I met up with Kathy and we began our long journey home. Long, because I-95 was totally backed up for miles and took an extra hour to get home. The anticipation of finally getting home was driving us a bit loopy so we kinda acted on it and she began taunting other drivers on the road with her witch finger-puppet, and I began doing all those classic impressions I do and it was just a good time. Still, a little flirting but at the same time I was pulling out my pictures of Niniane to show her. Once again, a mutual silent understanding. ‘Course I am bad at judging flirting, so she could have been just friendly and I’m talking out my ass.

So I drop her off, shake hands, and I’m on my way home. Once I arrive, I find my pager which I left here and seeCallie has paged at least 7 times. She’s worried about her relationship with Dan. What else is new… *wink*

Well, Callie’s OK now. We hung out for a few hours, and I just got back from dropping her off. Now I can relax for a bit, then go to bed because I’m beat — and I have to be at work again at 12. UGH!

After work I should be going to this band practice thingie. I *might* be able to sing one song with them, but I’m still coughing like a mo-fo —- it ain’t good, folks. Lemme tell ya!

Oh BTW — RedRival update: “Full Upgrades: Testing still being done as we transfer over everything. We hope to have everything operational in a few more days. ”

All for now.

::Coz::

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10.20.2000

11:27:45 PM

…and a very appropriate daily MIDI (early) change before I go to bed.

Sweet dreams, everyone 🙂

::Coz::

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11:10:19 PM

“Fuck L. Ron Hubbard and fuck all his clones. Fuck all those gun-toting,

hip-gangster wannabes. 

Learn to swim. 

Fuck retro anything. Fuck your tattoos.

Fuck all you junkies and fuck your short memory. 

Learn to swim. 

Fuck smiley glad-hands with hidden agendas. Fuck these dysfunctional,

insecure actresses. 

Learn to swim. 

Cuz I’m praying for rain.

And I’m praying for tidal waves. I wanna see the ground give way.

I wanna watch it all go down. Mom, please flush it all away.

I wanna watch it go right in and down. I wanna watch it go right in…. watch you flush it all away.”

Ænima

::Coz::

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10:01:49 PM

Do me a favor, all….

Call “National Discount Brokers” by

dialing 1-800-888-3999 (it’s free)

LISTEN to ALL of the options

…after hearing option #7, hit 7

I did it, so don’t worry… it’s cool. And very funny. Do it!!!! Thanks to Niniane for sending me this info. *kiss*

::Coz::

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9:45:13 PM

Good day, earthlings… I cease from capitalization for reasons good.

Today at work was one funkin’ nutty day. I racked up around $1,200 for the store — just myself, and I think I only sold one cheap-o camera, too! So there! Now, after working 11 hours, I have to go to bed and wake up around 6:30 – 7am to go pick up a couple people and go to some training program required for all Ritz Associates. That’s a good hour drive away or so. Ugh. So blah blah blah.

Yesterday I was informed of a Penn Wood Class of ’98 alumni who was killed in a car accident last week. Nick D’angelentonio (or some italian “D’angel….” name) I knew him a little, but never was really friends with him. I’m 20 years old… 2½ years out of high school and I already know of at least 6 people from my class and the surrounding classes that have died, including my best friend of 9 years. Does this seem right to you? Me neither. This isn’t exactly a Brooklyn, NY or South Central, CA kinda town… There’s just a lot of bad luck ’round here. Well… that and stupid people — which I guess would fit under bad luck as well. West Nile Virus is now in effect around here; radon was found in almost half the houses in Lansdowne; I myself have been held at gunpoint twice — both within 50 feet of each other here in Lansdowne; I myself have also been in two near-fatal car crashes…. need I go on?

Need to email “the band” about this Sunday and how I will be partaking in their practice….

Need to say “hi” to Erin McGuire if she sees this. I just ran into her at Wawa. (Another alumni, who luckily hasn’t died yet.) She said she’ll check out my web-a site-a.

Need to show you all this. Need to tell you all that I got my first referral from a search on Google: “Coz Baldwin”. YAY! That makes me quite happy indeed.

……..so which one of you was it…..? C’mon, I can handle it. 🙁

I think that’s about all for now, don’t you?

::Coz::

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10.19.2000

11:37:07 PM

Ugh! Must I be trendy for somebody to notice me? …to like me? …to love me? …to link me?

::Coz::

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11:25:34 PM

I said… goodnight! GO! GO!

::Coz::

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10:48:08 PM

And no, I don’t have any hidden meaning behind today’s MIDI as I usually do… but I’m sure if you think real hard you can come up with something. Please send me any theories you may have. Goooodnight.

::Coz::

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10:42:51 PM

So yeah.. I didn’t get to go out tonight. Probably for the best.

Niniane‘s a day behind me in her sickness, so that means she’s half-dead today. To quote her tonight: “I look like death.” —— poor girl.

I should go soon. I’m actually tired after sleeping all day yesterday. But…. I…must….put…up…another…daily…

MIDI….because…I’m…sure…

you’re…all…getting…tired…of…

this…same…one…just…as…

you’re…getting…tired…of…

this…dot…dot…dot…after…

everything…or…atleast…I’m…

getting…tired…of…this…dot…

dot…dot…thing……….

::Coz::

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7:17:40 PM

Matt from RedRival sez:

Hello,

To update everyone on the Full Upgrades: We are now in the process of moving everything over to the new system. When that is complete, more testing will be done and then, finally, it will be brought up officially. This should take another few days.

Thanks,

bye…

But whatever… I’m stil able to use FTP and get into my file manager (as far as I know… I haven’t tried yet) so that’s all I care about. Course maybe this blog won’t even go through, either… ugh.

Today wasn’t a bad day. I’m feeling better, but not nearly 100%. I sold 3 cameras. And stayed an extra 45 minutes. Tomorrow I work from 9am to 8pm. UGH! Why?! I don’t know?!?!

I want to go out tonight for some reason, but don’t know where or what to do. hm.. All for now.

::Coz::

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10.18.2000

9:47:30 PM

sorry. I don’t have the energy to put up a new Daily MIDI. Please forgive me.

Goodnight.

::Coz::

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9:27:40 PM

I’m so sick. I’m so very, very sick. I hurt all over. I can barely breathe. I slept all day in complete uncomfortableness. I called out of work. I hope not to do it tomorrow, but I am really, really sick. I think I may go in and see how things are. Maybe they’ll allow me to go home. I know they weren’t happy today. I left it up to one person to open the store and stay there for an hour alone until the next person came in. I hope it wasn’t too busy.

*moan* I’m sooooo sick…..

::Coz::

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12:23:25 AM

Oh and by the way — to those who have been wondering (and I know you all are…) The new Site Of The Week will be posted next Monday. It’s kinda too late to put one up now, seeing as it wouldn’t be much of a “week”.

Coo coo ca choo.

::Coz::

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10.17.2000

11:58:35 PM

Be proud of me. I was first in sales last week! I dethroned Matt. Since he arrived there in June or July, he’s been the top seller almost every week. It’s always been between him and the store manager. Well, not anymore, big boy! Move aside, there’s a new king in town. Sorry, I’m sure it was a fluke, but I like to have something I can be proud of now and again

Well, I woke up on time and made it into work though I suffered throughout it. I don’t know if I’ll make it in tomorrow. I’m working 9-4. (…is no way to make a livin’) — I don’t want to call out; I need the money badly. But, damn… I won’t suffer for it.

Mother looked at my site yesterday but wasn’t able to get past the splash page. (heh heh) — So, mommy dearest… if you’re seeing this: “hi”

RedRival: Still officially down.

—-Good day—

::Coz::

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1:50:40 AM

Well, I’m gonna try and get some sleep. Goodnight.

::Coz::

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1:24:24 AM

I slept till 6pm today (yesterday) — and I’m supposed to go to bed now so I can be at work at 10am? hehehe… I somehow doubt I’ll be able to do that…

Yes… 6pm! I’m sick, dammit. I gotta cold. *whaaa whaaa*

::Coz::

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12:56:11 AM

And now my blog template should be all revised as well. Come one, come all.

::Coz::

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12:45:30 AM

Good day, all! I hope you’re liking the new design. I don’t think I’m supposed to be able to be using the FTP, but it’s working, so I will. Though expect delays.

To wrap up the past few days…

Well, I may be a lead singer of a band. I may go to their practice on Sunday and see what they’re all about. I’ve been listening to a tape of theirs. It’s not too bad. I’d also be the lyricist as well. I have to work on something for Sunday.

I hate to leave a job soon after I get it, but I heard about a job at Cellular One and if I can get in there, I would have it made. Really, I would. But it’s too far away right now to say anything’s even close to definite.

There’s more drama going on in “Coz and The Restless” — though I probably shouldn’t talk about it here or a’ll get more whining in my ear.

Oh, I’m sorry… did I offend anyone by saying that? Tough. I’m tired of this high school shit constantly surrounding me. Can’t I live my own life the way I see fit? I make no personal attacks on anyone. I mean not to offend anyone in my actions — and therefore I have no excuses, and no guilt because I see nothing wrong. I will cease from the actions in question, but I will not apologize for them.

If you’re reading this and have no idea what I’m talking about, then this is obviously not directed to you. Those people know who they are.

“It’s not going to stop… ’til you wise up”

::Coz::

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10.7.2000

1:32:04 AM

Oh yeah — in case some of you are wondering why I’m not spending my night (and morning) cruising, it’s because I have to be in work at 9am until 6pm. UGH!!!!!! But then I’m off Sunday so that will be nice. Man o man o man o man o man……. *BANG*

::Coz::

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12:21:21 AM

800 hits! Yahoooo…..

::Coz::

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12:18:54 AM

This is my new car!!!!!!!!!!!! Only, picture it dark green. Wowzers. I can’t believe it. I have a CD player AND cassette in there. I love it. Other than the car I don’t have much to say. I believe today is the day RedRival will be setting up their new system. i won’t be able to blog probably any more for the next couple days. Please keep checking back though. I’m leaving you with a nice MIDI to get you through the days and I’ll see you soon! I love you, Niniane! 🙂

PS — to keep y’all busy during the downtime, especially you Britney haters… check this out.

::Coz::

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10.5.2000

11:46:33 PM

No reason for this MIDI — just want to use it and get it over with. Goodnight, again.

::Coz::

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11:42:43 PM

…but as it came down near so did a weary tear. I thought it was a bird but it was just a paper bag.

i think these regular hours have finally caught up to me. I have had an on-again-off-again headache for a number of days now. Of course my Aleve is stil in my car which is still parked at the auto body place. GRR! Goodnight.

::Coz::

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9:19:06 PM

Well I’ll skip today’s work entry because I didn’t do much and it was super slow today.

I got word from my mechanic that my car would be almost undriveable. Now they found that something in the engine has blown. I can’t remember what it was. Head _______ something. Anywho, so I was quite disappointed. I figured I gotta get a car and I gotta get one tonight. So I went to the Saturn dealership and looked at a few. The one that I’m going for (even though I know I shouldn’t be is the SL1 — the 2000 model. Boo-yah. They tried calling the loan company and seeing if I would be accepted but they never got back in time. So, I’ll know tomorrow at work when Saturn calls me. Ugh. There goes anything I wanted to purchase for the next 5 years. This is all assuming I will be accepted which there’s a slim chance of anyways. I just need a fucking car. Now! I NEED one! Dammit….

Callie was hired at Larmon Photo in Granite Run mall. She’s now a competetor of mine. haha.

::Coz::

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12:48:01 AM

ugh.. goodnight.

::Coz::

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10.4.2000

11:48:43 PM

God, what a horrible MIDI this is… Sorry, y’all.

::Coz::

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11:46:20 PM

Oh yeah, and I think I got Callie and interview at Wawa on Sunday morning: 9am. So, Dan if you read this and talk to her before I do…. tell her that. But it’s not a mandatory thing.. just if she can make it.

::Coz::

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11:45:08 PM

I’m sorry to everyone for not blogging. I actually was, but the FTP on RedRival was not working or something. D’oh. So here’s most of what I was saying. Now on to today’s blog::::::::::::

I drop off my car last night. I get a call this morning from them saying the waterhose is busted, now, too. That’s probably the cause of the stalling and the “check engine” light coming on. yeah — thanks for telling me this now! So I say that I’m getting rid of the car but make it driveable at least. He said he’ll call me back. I get my grandmoms car and I go to work He never calls. I get home tonight and not knowing what I have to do with my grandmoms car; if she needs it tomorrow, if my car is done…. nothing! So, I call her up and she says I can have the car again. This is good. Now I know I can have it no matter what. The guy did leave a message on my machine telling me to call him. I gave him my work number… why didn’t he call there?!?! UGH!!!! So I’ll find out tomorrow what the dilly is, yo.

Today at work was quite an adventure. It was a super-busy day. The customers were horrible. People yell at us a lot, but 2 co-workers who’ve been with the company a good number of years both agreed that today was the worst as far as customers yelling at us. It was pretty bad. But I sold a $300 Pentax P&S with a 2 year extended warranty (that means a lot of commission for me) and a few people asked my name or if I had a card so they can come back to me. Very very good shit. This guy was asking me all about this digital camera. Now, I know nothing about them but somehow all the questions he was asking me were mainly the computer details and what to do with the memory card and shit. This stuff I know. I was able to answer all the questions he had! Amazing! So I gave him a homemade card with my name and store number, etc. He hopefully will buy it off of me, and he was also looking at a telescope — A nice one priced at about $600! And the digital cameras, well… they’re up there in price, too. So that would be nice.

Towards the end of the day a guy came over from a nearby Ritz store to drop something off. He ended up staying and we talked a lot. He’s hyper-active but pretty cool. And MAN! Does he know everything there is to know about cameras. ANYTHING you want to know, he’s got an answer. It’s amazing. He’s only 22 and he’s done so many things in his life — I could go on for an hour about this kid. So… maybe I have a new friend. hee hee. Oh, but I must mention this thing. A customer came in with a camera for whatever reason. Without her saying anything to him, he asked within 3 seconds of glancing at it, “When did you take this to the beach?” It was a few years ago when she did! It was nuts!!!

So anyways… that’s Jim. And… that’s all for now. The FTP and file manager for RedRival will be going down for almost a week at any given moment. If I happen to know in advance, I shall let you all know that there will be no updating for that long. If not…. please keep checking back if you notice no change on here… I’ll be back as soon as I can. Thanks!

Coz

::Coz::

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12:36:57 AM

Psst….

………………….RedRival sucks….

::Coz::

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12:24:23 AM

Hmm.. i’d like the cheapest and newest pre-owned S-Series sedan, please. Thank you.

::Coz::

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10.3.2000

11:40:32 PM

This is it! I’ve had it!!! I’m buying a new car as soon as I can. I will pay whatever I can for as long as I need to if I could just have a nice new vehicle that I don’t have to worry about!!!!!! I’m so fucking fed up with this car. The window was fixed on it, right? Well, they didn’t touch any of the oil leak problems and the fact that the car smokes as much as I do and that it stalls in the middle of rt.320 or anywhere else it feels like unless I put it in neutral every god-damn time I step on the brakes! So I’m dry, and a little warmer with the window being up, but it doesn’t help when someone pulls along side of me on the way home and yells out “You have no tail lights!!!” — Great. Let’s just see if I can have every single thing go wrong on the car that possibly can go wrong all at once! So that’s it. I’m buying a new car. I’ll get a loan if I have to make a modest down payment, I don’t fucking care. I don’t…fucking….care. I’m putting more money in this car than it’s worth. The end.

Callie‘s still deciding if she wants the new design up. la dee da.

And um….. hmm…. that’s about all the venting I can do for one sitting right now. Oh yeah! but I sold another camera today! WHOO HOO!! But it’s not like I did anything. he already knew what he wanted, all I did was let him play with it and make sure it really was what he wanted. A Minolta Explorer EX (I think) — for $150.00 I believe. You can cross check me HERE, if you so desire. I don’t feel like it.

I think I want a Saturn.

::Coz::

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2:37:23 AM

Ok, so I didn’t feel like blogging at all tonight. I still don’t — but I gotta put up today’s Daily Midi, don’t I???

I really have nothing of importance to say right now anyways except I have callie’s new design just about ready for whenever she wants to put it up. Oh yeah, and RedRival is pushing back the date again. The 7th is now what they’re saying. Remember: No updates for about a week whenever it finally happens. Sorry.

::Coz::

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10.2.2000

12:37:56 AM

Oh, and there’s a new Site Of The Week up seeing as it’s Monday. — Check it out in ‘Links”

::Coz::

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12:35:32 AM

BTW — I should be visiting Miss Niniane in early January right after my birthday. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to even last that long! I miss her so so so so much!!!

Going to bed soon….

::Coz::

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12:12:51 AM

I followed Lane to emode.com, and found out what my flavor is — only without a long and drawn out explanation because I’m not a member. I am peppermint. “Fresh, classic, and crisp, [I’m] as tasty as they come.”

::Coz::

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10.1.2000

11:39:25 PM

I’m awaiting a call from someone who’s boyfriend might be interested in having me as their lead singer. If I don’t hear from them sometime soon, I’ll call them. i still have to even get a CD to them. It’s semi-hard stuff from what I know. I have yet to hear them, too. I would like to do it. Which is why I’m hesitant to cut my hair off. Long hair is always nice for a lead singer, right? heh heh. I’m glad I wrote this because now I know how stupid it sounds. Well, looks like I’ll be getting a hair cut soon. Back to this: 

I’m still trying to figure out what it was that made me let my hair grow out. Well, I do know. It was a hassle having to get it cut so often. Plus I wanted to have long hair again. But now it’s a hassle to style, and get out of my face when I’m driving.

I’m just never happy.

::Coz::

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6:51:14 PM

I’m bored. I’ve been bored. I want something to do. I want someone to talk to, but I don’t feel like talking. My manager is quite unreliable. He was going to do a new schedule for me, but never gave it to me. I don’t know if I’m supposed to go into work tomorrow or not. There’s a whole other list of things he needs to do with me that I could name, but no reason for you to see. Just to know. Kids on my street are loud. The squirrel above my head in the attic is loud. Fiona’s voice is soft, but I have no interest in hearing it even though I am. I should watch TV or something. I would like to go to bed, but I just woke up 3 hours ago. I would like to have some fun. I want to see if Denny’s has completed its renovations. I haven’t talked to Callie since Friday. I should call. I need caffiene. I want to be on someone’s daily list of blogs. I want to be noticed. I need to be held. Is this depression, or boredom? Loneliness, perhaps? Or does depression equal boredom or loneliness? Does it equal up when both are accounted for? I should go…

::Coz::

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3:58:39 AM

AAaaaannnndddd it looks like it’s about time for me to go to bed.

I love you, Niniane!!!!

::Coz::

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2:09:14 AM

And I’m still going kind of slow. I’d bet a dollar I will be disconnected again before I go to bed. I can just feeeeel it.

::Coz::

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2:02:26 AM

I came home to find myself disconnected. I had to wait an hour before I finally got back on. All the wait, for nothing, kinda — No Niniane.

I went and saw “Almost Famous” tonight. Niniane raved about it, and a lot of good things have been said by critics. Well, yes. It is a good movie. It’s worth seeing, but honestly, I don’t see the “spectacularness” in it. But now I do have a new-found appreciation for Kate Hudson… *purr*. RATING: 3½ out of 5 stars.

My car is acting up. It was stalling today. A lot. And the hood was smoking when it finally ran long enough to pull it into a parking spot at work. I gotta get it in the shop. BADLY!

::Coz::

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Coz

Create until nothing is left to create.

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