Looking Back on Point of View

An old friend, Julie, suddenly came back into my life yesterday and reminded me of this song that I wrote when I was about 16. “I See Myself”.

She didn’t have to remind me, actually, as there’d been tiny bits and pieces of it that have haunted me for years. But Julie loved this song and would often play it herself. She remembered much more of it than I did. In fact, she still had some handwritten lyrics of the song. When I got to read all the lyrics again, I remembered it was actually called “Point of View”.

So I went looking through some old tapes I digitized years ago. Most of them were living-room recordings of my first band, Currently BLEU (Listen to those recordings here) and other jam sessions by myself and with my dad on drums.

Lo and behold, I found a recording of my dad and I playing Point of View. He didn’t know the song too well; it was a very informal recording, as you can hear. To be honest, the more I listen to this, it doesn’t sound like I knew the song too well at this point, either. *yeeish*

While the melody of this song was always a favorite of mine and has stuck with me forever, I always hated the banal, juvenile lyrics. But I wrote it when I was, like, 16… So, whatever. Enjoy.

I mean, this is more for me than you, but I still hope you enjoy.

Lyrics:

I see myself start to smile.
I see myself start to fade away (alt. ‘break down’).
I see myself start to cry.
Oh, why can’t I just die?

I see myself start to laugh.
I see myself start to turn away (alt. ‘fade away’).
I see myself start to look at things from a different point of view.

I see myself start to dance.
I see myself start to turn away from you.
I see myself start to fall.
I guess I don’t know anything at all.

I see myself to smile.
I see myself to break down.
I see myself to cry.
Oh, why can’t I just die?

I see myself start to laugh.
I see myself start to fade away (alt. ‘turn away’).
I see myself start to look at things from a different point of view.

p.s. THANKS, JULIE!

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