Don’t worry, this’ll all be interesting when I’m dead.

New, improved versions of Karaoke Coz!

~ Tool: Sober

~ Gary Jules/Michael Andrews: Mad World

(Can anyone teach me how to get these to stream or some other better option?)

I’d also like to give long-overdue props to Liz for taking the photos of me used in the banner-logo, comments window, and the new ones in the Biography slideshow. I’ve added her name into the credits of the site (located in the About page).

Oh, and I bought a digital camera. This is the point & shoot camera that I’ll use to take pictures of the stuff I’m selling on eBay to buy the camera I REALLY want.

The camera I bought to buy the camera I want.

I knew my dad collected things but I had no idea just how much. I tell ya, I could literally put a neon sign in the front window and a little “Store Hours” sign on the door and run a small store out of here for the next 6 months to a year.

I knew he had a lot of records, but I didn’t know exactly how many. He had 375 albums. Now I have 375 albums. I know this because I cataloged them this afternoon-into-evening. Wanna see?

There is Star Trek memorabilia, Mr. T. memorabilia, books, movies, baseball cards, baseball memorabilia, Nascar memorabilia, Playboys from 1960’s to early 1990’s, and much more. So I’m thinking of the best way to eBay it all out of here. I don’t know what the best way is…. I’ve never sold even a dirty sock on eBay.

I keep saying to myself as I walk around the house “Damn… what the hell am I going to with all this?” I need a dumpster outside of my house. Seriously. How does one get one of them?

It’s not that I’m neglectful, I just have little time. It’s not that I don’t have anything to say, either… it’s just I don’t know how to say it.

I’ve been so tired. But all in all, things are going ok. I am buying a cheap digital camera and will take pictures of so many items in the house to sell on eBay. I don’t know how long it will take but I’m in for the long haul. With that money, I will purchase a professional digital camera and start a small hobby up. Then, as I write this I think “Why not buy the professional one and it will pay for itself with the eBay items…? Then I only have one digital camera as needed.” Granted, I could then sell the small digital camera on eBay once I buy the professional one. What the hell…. this should be an easier decision.

Any suggestions?

HEY! A Perfect Circle is releasing a new album, right, on November 2nd. It’s a collection of covers of songs about WAR, PEACE, LOVE AND GREED, entitled “eMOTIVe.”

They just released their first single off of it. It’s a cover of John Lennon’s “Imagine” !!!! Ohhhhhhh…. LISTEN! http://www2.fanscape.com/APC/audio/imagine_win.asp

Services for my dad will be Wednesday, 2pm at O’Learys Funeral Home in Springfield, PA. Intersection of Bishop Ave. and Springfield Road.

It’s 8:20am. I’m surprised he hung in there this long but he was really fighting it the past 2 days. I just received the call that he finally let go. At this very moment there’s another person being born. Happy birthday… welcome to life.

I’ve taken the week off of work and I really need it. I’ve come to a calm, I think. For now.

It was finally made clear to me by the doctors that my dad will not be making it through this. They’ll continue to keep him alive as much as they can, while we contact those who may want to see him. In a few days or so, I’ve decided to stop delaying the inevitable. We’ll put him in the care of Hospice in the hospital. Off the dopamine, he may last a few minutes, a few hours, or a few days. Anything beyond that is unlikely.

Alright, back from a weekend spent somewhere else and my heart is still stuck in my throat. It’s difficult to swallow it all down. I wish, on so many levels, I had another month of days to spend somewhere else.

My dad is back in ICU and had to be put on dialysis. His mind has formed another reality, most likely due to the treatment. He’ll talk to imaginary people and barely hold a conversation with the people really there beside him. His heart is working on its own but his liver has virtually failed and his kidneys aren’t doing much at all. His days are almost up, I can feel it. The reality of it has begun to set in for me. I’m trying to keep my strength up.

Let me be free from this vice, this test of might, this test of will. Grant be some serenity and solace and peace. Please.

“I hear them coming, The Blue Parade. They’re throwing snowflakes and singing my name. In deep blue voices I hear them say, ‘There’s good love out there, just you wait…’”

George McFly : Lorraine, my density has bought me to you.

Lorraine Baines : What?

George McFly : Oh, what I meant to say was…

Lorraine Baines : Wait a minute, don’t I know you from somewhere?

George McFly : Yes. Yes. I’m George, George McFly. I’m your density. I mean… your destiny.

Quick Updates:

1) Dad’s in ICU. Stable but little improvement on his quality of life.

2) No cause of death determined for Sara. No definite plans set for services.

3) I’ve gotten dozens of search engine referrals from people searching for various contexts that include the word “cyrana.” Yes, it’s a song of mine. Yes, I spelled it differently from the poem it’s written around. Yes, these people are all spelling it wrong. I want to know, though, after 4 years on the web, why all of a sudden the poem’s popularity seems to have be resurrected. It’s weird… just weird.

In fact, if you’re here after searching the web for “cyrana”, please leave a comment as to what prompted you to search for Ernest Dowson’s old poem entitled “Cynara.”

I’d like to know. Or, are you really searching for my song because someone started playing it on a college radio station somewhere? Help! Tell me, puh-lease!!!

4) If you’re in Florida, you shouldn’t be reading this. Get the hell out. Now, dummy.

&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp–oh wait! Unless you’re in Florida and you searched “Cyrana” because if that is the case, please comment first and then get the hell out. Thanks.