Don’t worry, this’ll all be interesting when I’m dead.

Boy, I hope I wasn’t the only “one” who watched these last 2 episodes of The Bachelorette…

*mumbles to self* WTF am I doing watching all these reality shows?!

It’s ok… I only watched these last 2 episodes…

She really reminds me of someone I miss…

Let me tell you about my week thus far.

Monday: Nothing really special happens. I start to feel a chest cold coming on.

Tuesday: I go to work feeling a bit under the weather. I leave work at the end of the day looking forward to going out for Mardi Gras celebration at a bar where the Kings Of Karaoke are showing later that night. I have a dentist’s appointment. I sit down and proceed to get shot in the upper lip with novocaine. A tooth is then drilled and filled. I get up to find the novocaine has spread due to an empty stomach. My right eye is numb. It’s causing the nerves to be relaxed and I can’t lift my eyeball. I see two of everything. I’m a little weirded out by this and have no idea what to think. They won’t let me drive home in this condition… until I realize… that if I tilt my head back a bit, my left eye then matches up to where my right eye is resting. I drive home like that. It’s a little weird.

Halfway home, as I’m worried about how I’m gonna drive to southern Delaware and sing with a numb lip and a numb eye… I start to feel something under me. It feels like…. oh…. yes….. yes, it’s a fucking tire going flat. WTF!

I get home and sure enough there’s a screw sticking out of my tire. Well this just does it. So there I am with a flat tire and a numb eye and a numb lip while I got people calling me asking me when I’m leaving for the bar. HA!

I stay home.

Wednesday: Get up. Get the tire plugged. Go home…. too sick to work. Stay home all day.

Thursday: Get up. Go in. …Leave at 12:45pm.

Can’t talk too well between the sneezes and the nose-blowing and can barely see the screen through my watering eyes. (At least they’re not numb.)

I get home to find out that the typo on my Social Security Card (last name spelled: “Balwin”) is all of a sudden a PROBLEM after 24 years with the IRS who can’t file my taxes until the discrepancy is cleared. So I’ve been running around all day, sick as a dog, trying to get a new SS card issued as well as updating the address on my drivers license. The Lisence Office tells me they don’t do address changes there. They also “Don’t know” if I can do it online. Well, guess what, fuck-tard…. I can print out a form online and then mail it in. And YOU should have a form so I can do it there, too.

Friday: Can’t wait.

Check out the Kings Of Karaoke picture page (towards the bottom)! They’re wearing shirts with my frikken artwork on them! Yahoo!!

In the meantime, I thought I’d show you the personal ad I put in the local paper.

(not really mine, dummy)

I hate reality shows. Not because they’re trendy, but because they’re just plain dumb. When I first saw the advertisements for this new show, “My Big Fat, Obnoxious Fiance”, I thought it was the most god awful idea I’ve ever heard. But I happened to watch the first episode and found out all about what the REAL plot is. I was hooked. With each episode, I found myself closer to the characters and hoping for the best.

The finale just aired and although I knew it was going to be a chaotic and emotional last episode, I had no idea I would become a faucet of tears while watching this. How evil this was! How beautiful and evil this was.

FOX TV be damned for putting a family through such hell and be honored for the homage to the kind of love every family should have. Be honored for exploiting it’s love and be honored for helping to test such a love which is necessary to strengthen and maintain it.

In order to keep the eternal flame burning, the rain is a necessary battle. You must learn to embrace the rain, for it is all you have to learn from… to grow from.

Message to Randi Coy: Congratulations. Good luck in your future. Here’s to many days of eternal flames because you’ve had enough rain for quite a long time.

I made a quick logo for the karaoke company who so graciously put up with my singing every Friday night. If you’re in the Delaware area, please check out where The Kings Of Karaoke are showing!

Last time I shaved my entire face (with a straight-edge razor) I think I was in 8th grade. Perhaps 9th.

Until Thursday night. So… I thought I should take some pix of this momentous occasion… since it will probably be another 10 years before I do it again.

Also, got creative and started taking some contrast photography.

Here they are.

Special happy birthday wishes go out to Ralph from all of us here at cozbaldwin.com! I went up to Allentown tonight to be present at his surprise birthday party. It was good to see you again, buddy. But god, what a fucking hike it was.

Damn, did I have a good day today? I think I did!

It all started when I heard on the radio that APC is coming to town in April and tix go on sale Saturday.

I also have an invite to a pre-sale tomorrow morning due to being on the mailing list. I think I’ll have to go in to work late to get this. It also gets me early admission to the venue if I am one of the first 100 to buy from the pre-sale.

*UPDATE* 2 tickets purchased — reserved seating — early admission — who wants one….!!

The calls at work today weren’t bad at all.

I had a great evening after work getting to know a co-worker over dinner and drinks.

I get home to find a comforting email from my “October Reign”.

I got a complimentary email from a websurfer about this site.

And I find a comment a few posts down from the long lost Melanie, who I’m so happy to hear is alive and well.

I’m a little scared that everything went pretty well today. I’m afraid to hop in the shower. I don’t want to fall and crack my head open or something.

Best wishes to you all!

I wanted to say something. I wanted to help you understand what this is.

So…

I updated the “about” section of the site to accurately represent what this site is about, rather than just the technical aspects of it. I also moved “the poem” from the “about” page to the “bio” page. It fits better there.

Some have told me I should have a collection of my stories and musings. I’m not sure about that, as the stories I write tend to be quite controversial and/or private. But perhaps… someday…

This will be the last time I see the internet for a week.

I am moving tomorrow and have no idea when I’ll have my new connection up. As soon as this is posted, I’m yanking the cord.

Please give me time to respond to your emails if you write me any. If you need to get ahold of me, just call my cell.

Thanks and have a great week. While you’re here, go through some archives of my 4 years on the net.

I want to be beautiful.

I want to be more like you.

Just a little closer, just a little bit beautiful like you.

and all I can do is tell you “I promise.”