SOUNDTRACK WEEK STARTS MONDAY!
SOUNDTRACK WEEK STARTS MONDAY!
SOUNDTRACK WEEK STARTS MONDAY!
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If you’ve ever wondered what it is about StileProject that I love so much… read this daily entry made by him one year ago. This is what he’s about. It’s this rant that might as well have been plucked from between my very own teeth and scraped from my tongue, that makes me read the site everyday. I read this in total admiration because it’s these kinds of things that my mind will not allow me to put on MY website… but I feel it… and I want to.
It’s not about the porn, it’s not about the extremely graphic pictures and videos he posts (although I do appreciate the “numbing” and “immunization” that is brought on by witnessing some of the images). It’s about my feelings being portrayed helping me know I’m not alone… and giving me the courage to embrace who I am inside, little by little.
I am at a loss for words. So here’s a stupid MIDI for you.
Awesome.
I just had a French Google referral for “le coz”
I know I just had this MIDI up, but this time… It has a personal meaning behind it.
I hope it’s understood.
“O no, I see,
A spider web is tangled up with me,
And I lost my head,
The thought of all the stupid things I said,
I never meant to cause you trouble
And I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble
O no, I never meant to do you harm”
Called up “the sickie’s” today. Dad and John. See how they were doing. Dad’s fine, just bored. They’re testing out a bunch of meds on him… see what helps. He should be home on Monday.
John was hungry and so we went to Houlihan’s. He picked up the check, too. (But I’m paying him back) Had a nice steak dinner and chatted. To answer a lot of people’s question: We do not know what caused the cancer. He has theories but nothing that has much substance. (Microwave at mom’s is suspended at head-level, preservatives from certain foods may cause it and he never ate very well, says he) He starts chemo next Wednesday. He’s already had his bone marrow biopsy (sp?) and had a port put in (a temporary device placed under the skin to provide a place to poke the hundreds of needles he’ll be getting).
Anyway… maybe I should rethink that whole “honesty is the best policy” thing from the other day. Coz is concerned he made mistakes. But Coz over-reacts and does it too soon, to boot.
Bad Coz.
I’m thinking about adding a search bar to the archives… but will anyone use it?
I want everyone to email me and tell me what you think. Think of it as my online poll of the week, but without the annoying graphic that you see on all the sites… and it won’t be every week.
I’m getting sick. I can feel it coming on strong. Chest tightening up…. nose filling up…. head feeling cramped….
Hope it’s not Anthrax.
I don’t know what’s going on with my hosts but it’s going really slow… dramatically affecting the cozcam.
I am so frikken tired.
Bed… Oh precious bed. Embrace me like there’s no tomorrow. Engulph me in your warmth, in your comfort, and your scent of rotten coz-sweat.
